Time to think

Time to think

Reflecting on the past and anxious about the future
Wishing the time away then wishing it would stand still
Trying to be postive, thankful and forgiving
Holding it in to save face
Worried about what others might think
Happy that I'm free, confident and strong
Moments of doubt and sadness enter
How quickly they are dismissed
No time to dwell, no time to be negitive
So much to be thankful for

Missing so many and wanting them close
One I will see in heaven
I'll hold him tight and never let him go
The others, who knows when
No regrets, so much love, so many lessons learned
Hard to be paitient
Is it always worth it in the end
What if it's not
Why did I spend so much time wondering
Crying tears into my open heart

Where do I go from here
Am I doing the right thing
Just when I think I'm confused
Just when I let myself go
I am rewarded
It might be small but a little goes a long way
Living on a dream, a laugh, a smile
Doesn't take much for me to melt
Letting go bit by bit
Giving in and allowing myself to feel
Proud, happy, strong and confident

What if we were all dreamers
What would happen then

Thanks for letting me get that out of my mind.
Until next time...