so blessed

I've been thinking a lot tonight about how blessed I am. I have my health, my family, my husband, my friends, my career (even though it has it's ups and downs).

My parents were so supportive while I was growing up. There is no way I would be here today, doing what I'm doing, if it weren't for them. They were always there to support and encourage me. I pray that I will be able to provide the same love, encouragement and the support (financially and emotionally) to our children that they did.

It's hard to keep reminding myself how precious life is sometimes. We all get caught up with our lives and it's easy to complain. What do I have to complain about? NOTHING. Absolutely nothing. In the past 4 months I've learned that 3 people I know have cancer. That is crazy...I can't wrap my head around it. I really can't. I try to understand what it would be like to find out and I can't get beyond it. So the question I ask myself is...what can I do? Well, I can pray that God gives them and their loved ones strength, faith, and comfort.

I know what it's like to lose someone close to you. My dad died 6 years ago, not to cancer but it changed the way I look at life. Some things just aren't important anymore and things like family become more and more important everyday. Why do we let silly things like money and disagreements come between us? It's just so disturbing when you stop to look at the bigger picture. I tend to repeat this saying a lot..."things happen for a reason". It helps me to let things go and accept the hard times. Even though it's hard to understand when you are in the moment. Sometimes but not all the time, it ends up making sense.

My friend sent me an email awhile back and I wanted to include this comment from her in this entry..."When it comes down to it, all that matters on this earth is People, and love, and God. Thats it....none of these materialistic things REALLY truely matter, because when someone you love so dearly, someone you would truely give your life for, is in danger of losing theres.....u realize that nothing else matters....nothing...."

Please pray for her sister and the 2 others I know that are fighting cancer right now. Thank you.

until next time

weekend is here

Nice...Showgirls forever!!! This is Alaina, myself and Shelly.


Well the weekend is here and my good friend Alaina is coming to Toronto for a brief visit from New York! We worked on a ship together in 1998 and have kept in touch all these years. It's amazing how time flies.

I had an interview with Match Marketing for possible work as a makeup artist for L'Oreal and a couple other companies. It sounds like fun so I hope I get it. We'll see. I have an audition for a Mitsubishi commercial on Monday...hope that goes well. Other than that not much is going on these days.

Until next time

another day

After returning from B.C. I felt ready to jump back into the Toronto lifestyle again. I'm ready to work but the problem is there is none. What the heck is going on out there. Seriously...where is all the theatre? I had 2 commercial auditions today so I should be thankful I guess. I should also be thankful that it's cool outside. Our place turns into a sauna most days. Sometimes it's hard to find balance in this business. At what point do you say okay I need a part time job or even a full time joe job? When you can't pay the rent? Hee Hee Hee! I'll keep pluggin' along and pray that something comes around. Looks like I'll be doing some temp work at an office tomorrow. It will be my first non-artistic job this year. Oh well gotta pay the bills...

sorry for the glum reality check of an entry, having one of those days. Until next time.

back in T.O

After 10 days in Victoria I feel refreshed enough to start again. While I was home I went to my friend's wedding. I have been friends with her since grade 5. We have managed to keep in touch all these years. It was a bit of a reunion because 5 other friends were there that I grew up with. The whole day was pretty emotional but picture perfect.

My sister and my mom had a surprise 80th birthday Tea Party for my Nan while I was at home. They thought of everything...scones with devonshire cream and jam, fancy sandwiches, everyone wore a beautiful hat and the kids got to make their own. What a beautiful day!

While I was away my friend's Rhonda and Charles got engaged and my husband Matt got offered a really great job. It hasn't been put on paper yet so I can't say too much but if it goes through it could really change our lives...in a good way. Stay tuned!

Over all it was a wonderful trip home and it was hard to leave. It's always hard to fit everything into 10 days but I think I did well. Happy to be back with Matt in Toronto and get back to work. I wonder what the future holds. Only time will tell.

Until next time!